Day: July 19, 2020

CONCERNING GEORGE FLOYD and WHY THE RIOTS?

I didn’t realize what entitled meant until i took a look into my prior actions as a kid. Let me try to explain: I vandalized. I stole. I hated indirectly. I hated ‘at’ something that I couldn’t quantify. / I lived in a wealthy white neighborhood being white.
I stuttered. I had acne—bad acne. I had a bent-crooked-large nose. I had crooked teeth… a large head… small body. I was different. I was set apart. I was selected out. —-I didn’t know what happened when everyone “all of a sudden’’ stopped hanging around me around 13. I was abandoned. My parents loved me but they couldnt relate internally to my suffering. I was Fatherless and Motherless in this suffering. They didn’t feel *why* I wanted to kill myself. They could ‘see’ outwardly, I’m sure, some/ all of my afflictions… but, … in all of that…I was ‘Fatherless’/‘Motherless’—-and hated myself for even uttering that internal feeling—-because, after all, I was “loved”; why would I be so spoiled as to dismiss being ‘loved’. / I didn’t have A REFERENCE POINT. No lead-star. I HAD NO VOICE (literally and spiritually). I lashed out in every way. I needed to “defend” myself against all of these dragons/demons. So, I did Martial Arts (just like the young man (name alludes me rt. now) who was on CNN who witnessed his spiritual Brother be killed while he held his iPhone and recorded the entire event of George Floyd’s death). Nonetheless, watching him speak on CNN last night, broke down the Anchor, Cuomo, to stop speaking. You could watch Cuomo interrupt at first ‘to get answers’…then, Cuomo (smart guy) stopped talking and let that poor young man cry, yell, genuflect, talk about martial arts, wrestling, fighting, defending, etc…WHY?!?!?!!—-because, he, in his position as a black man in an impoverished area/ arena has NO VOICE, NO ONE TO DEFEND HIM/ THEM, NO ONE TO SEE THE INTERNAL PAIN that is impersonal—-i related! I began to cry with him. Then, Cuomo said, ‘I apologize—I needed to be quiet and listen/learn’ to the young man. Cuomo settled in with patience. That was brilliant. The young man’s interview seemed irrational until you realize the conditions he lives in. That community that is burning down their own town is doing so because its all they know….they reference where they live by being ‘fatherless’, defenseless, homeless, afraid, judged, scandalized, downtrodden, dismissed (the true sense of being ‘hated’), —- knowing they’ll never be outside the realm of their own reference. They hate themselves for this too——they burn down their Father and Mother’s shops and homes because they hate themselves. They are their own looking glass with all the above negations—-while we judge, they have no hope with their reference= themselves. / I am still White…I Still am entitled as a White person in the sense that I’ll never be judged for being black. I have and am dismissed for my developed disdeveloped manner of speaking…using tricks to not stutter, using quirky actions-loony actions, loosy-goosy language—-to ‘flow’ better in my speech where my speech/where I am allowed to be accepted amongst the eclectic…. I am at least given this world… Many of these poor people do not have an open eye hope.. My interpretation of: James 1:27 “If you dare to be *religious* then go visit and help, aid, lift up, be with, guide, engender the hope in the homeless, the FATHERLESS, the MOTHERLESS, the oppressed”. ——I don’t need to parse this in the Greek. If there are any LEADERS, RULERS, GUIDES for this situation —let them be the least of these and let them serve the most.
This WORLD doesn’t need another HERO, or “LEADER”—- it needs people to get under the sunken heads of the downtrodden.

The Golden Mean

My sympathies are eternally extending in grace to everyone. Our federal institutions must act on their accord –and I would say swiftly. Nonetheless, I extend my eternal graces ( God granted to me and all ) to all because I see my eternal failures in this flesh. In my youth – and lesser today— though still I fight my lesser nature— I have extended ((and sadly-as all of us do at times)) my retributive nature to the world and found both grace for me and martial law against me. These two ‘acts’ did indeed ‘act’ upon me when I was younger and presently—ie, speeding and speeding tickets, for example. Grace taught me that I must forgive those who have done ‘injustice’ to me. This IS the Golden Mean. Jesus was without retributive action— but, He had active Grace and said, “Father, forgive them (( as they were killing and hating Him)) for they know not what they do” . Regardless of your opinions of ‘modern **christianity**’, the words recorded from Him were about Love and anti- retribution—- I. E., Grace. Continual ‘retributive’ action destroys all because it demands ‘just reward’ for the impunitive damage done to the flesh. Those who do not seek the eternal answer ( Grace ) will never fill the eternal void for injustices done to us all since the dawn of time. This conundrum of *justice* via – ‘eye for eye’ or reciprocating for an unquantified injustice is never resolved within a limited-mortal answer. Just look at our unending wars in the streets. Just look to the thousands of years of wars and destruction in the Middle East for the wisdom in that— i.e, lex talionis —eye for an eye’— . This, “eye for an eye” is already skewed. It’s self contained and does not see past its own myopia. This does not work on a societal level. / Our Government is granted the power to order a society to rest or, ‘civility’-if you will. It is the greatest rule on earth: The Kantian model of hierarchy to and for and by the people. When this doesn’t happen— society takes on what its individuals can never hold fairly — I.e.—martial law

Perplexity without Political Answer.

Our situation: perplexity without political answer. Yet—- here’s an Answer to this perplexity: *Grace unto our own hurt*. Who has set this example in your life? WHOEVER sets this example is more than a Hero. WHO set this example for all to follow— unto death? Go figure. //// on a secondary note: a J.R.R. TOLKIEN idea ( word for word I forgot ) -‘ evil will win in this world BUT good will be eternal and continue’. This is harsh. I don’t know if I can handle all of what Tolkien said, but, the effect is felt— and the direction of paths are clearer. Brilliant.

Government

No group, government-any extremist faction can ever legislate ethics or a moral change to come “to the other side”. This is a Western Hemisphere thing. We think in the West that if we are forced by riots to concede, renege or secede then we must have been wrong and they must be right. *Might is Right*— this is a western corruption. It is a world corruption. THIS corrupt view of “might is right” is exactly what “”the other side”” is doing! Retribution leads to retribution. Retribution is a mindless war machine needing not much of anything intelligent to get it started— much like this. /// I don’t apologize for loving the world. I don’t apologize for loving Christ who loved the world. If Christ is in me then I love the world. I know who I am because Christ knows me. I accept HIS Sovereign creation that only HE made to finalize — resulting in predetermined wars of races (ethnos) and Pestilence {cf Matthew 24/ Luke 21/ Mark 13}. I do not apologize for this or Bow down to the pride of mankind ( any “”Ethnos”””) or the *idea* of the “other side”. /// Neither the children of the Sino, Japheth, Hamitic or Shemitic race have “a pride” or a sufferance — as a “group collective” that will ever force another “group collective” to change. Let’s get painful: Biblically ( Genesis 9: 18-27 ), Ham ( the poignant historical figure that is also linguistically assigned the to African tongues) was cursed by Noah to be a SERVANT to Shem and Japheth for his actions. All of “Canaan (progeny of Ham)” shall serve the Middle Eastern race and Caucasian — Nordic, Swiss, Scandinavian, French, Dutch, Scottish,— etc — not just White America. Here’s where the facts are and you can get angry at me but it’s the TRUTH: Look at Africa in terms of building boats, buildings, air-liners, technology( computers, hardware/ software) etc, houses—outside of mud-dobbed houses. Is there anything produced that is viable on a world market
Level?— no. When Nelson Mandela took over South Africa what happened? What is going on now? AIDS, poverty, no productivity, rape, murder, division, etc. that is: a high Dutch society gave this piece of
Land over to the African race and what happened? Has not the Caucasian race ruled the world in brutality,
business and entitled ethnic supremacy?- Has not the Middle East been at retributive war based on the “eye for an eye” legalistic view which started from the Codex Hammurabi- that is: The Lex Talionis— which still upholds Levitical Old Testament war principles and Islam’s Jihad? Does this mean that I am to treat my brother who is black or sister who is black, Semitic, White, Latino lesser than myself? – Absolutely not!!! —to my own damnation, absolutely not. I don’t even believe in “free will” the same as many do— I believe in a Sovereign God who orchestrated THE NARRATION! THE STORY – for HIS glory — not ours. Therefore, no White pride, no Asian, Black, Latino pride!! Just the beauty of each race for what it has brought us. This IS color, rhythm, tapestry, unity.

*DEBT AND REPAYMENT* Tit for Tat

*I owe you/ you owe me*DEBT AND REPAYMENT* Tit for Tat —- this system of thinking and acting is based in legalism. Legalism is what you find in any religious or secular system that demands ‘justice’ for an infraction that was done to you. The problem of *debt and repayment* leads us to a few things, but namely this question: what ‘agreement’ in the ‘justice’ of humankind requires violations against their brother or sister (rioting, vandalism, murder, theft, rape) ?! –Well, doesn’t that requirement (anarchy) require a requirement (retributive anarchy answering to your anarchy)? ///// These are the DAYS where we are pushed to see the value of the CHRIST figure in Jesus. If He was God, is God, in a humble human despised sense while on earth, having been murdered for the sake of all the injustice of the world….and did NOT act back in retribution or retaliation,…but….BUT….FORGAVE ALL!!! … Who should we apologize to?! Should we at all apologize to man or GOD?! By what net worth do we hold to even have the bank to apologize?!! — or, are we in too much debt in ALL OF OUR INFRACTIONS/SINS? … In the narration, the story, the Gospel, ..Jesus, while dying on the cross for us, said to His Father, “Father, forgive ALL of them, for THEY know not what they do”. Luke 23:34. Jesus was referring to the rapacious Roman soldiers and the Pharasees. He didn’t require debt and repayment–i.e., RETRIBUTION… seriously, ready?—***an apology*** He gave forgiveness FREELY. THIS IS WHAT WE SHOULD DO! –***FORGIVE*** STOP USING DEBT AND REPAYMENT TERMINOLOGY!!! Legalism leads to the ignorant war machine. Both kill.
Whether or not you believe that the Gospels accounted for Christ in Human form or not…the eternal TRUTH remains in what is RIGHT IN YOUR FACE… Grace or Retribution? — We will continue, eternally, in one or the other

The Reason of Grace

My view must be a ‘relaxed’ one—which means, theological points, currents, patterns, etc. must ‘settle’ naturally/metaphysically.  I have always had a serious problem with the ‘ontology’ of who we *are, were, will be*.   I have always had strong ties to pagan religions– for I knew that Judaism and Christianity were born out of them. Not as copy and paste, rather, the ‘answer’ for the pagan (amoral/ moral) “economies (Greek: tribal handling/ house handling/*house law*)” with a *miraculous* new motion going forward out of the Lex Talionis’, “eye for eye”–retribution system ( Hammurabi’s *codex*).  I have always believed that the ‘birthing’ out of paganism was a “natural” one–that is, a miraculous notion- taking its surroundings and starting a fresh with absolute reference to the surrounding pagan ‘stage and setting’. Once a more developed sense of thought arose-roughly with the age of dialogue’s first steps found with Thales, we had both ‘participation’ and ‘figuration’ of the Pagan and early Judaistic *stage* and the machine called, ‘deductive syllogism’. Both ‘figuration’ notions and ‘deduction’ worked on me — as early as 18 years old in the while I was training with the Marines in the intense dry heat of the Mohave Desert. 

“Coming to be” and “Going away” {Generatione et Corruptione} were both fields of study that Aristotle brought to the foreground that became a study of mine starting with Plato in ‘coming to be’, then, Aristotle and back to Plato. I always held to the Platonic Idea of the “UNIVERSAL *US*” vs.  the  here and now or “verdandi (Germanic-present/ Greek- estin)” or present tense ‘you’ as the pagan Norse ‘fate’ set without love, rather, wielding or ‘weirding’ power.  I reference Germanic paganism and verb tense here due to our Western ‘saturation’ of Germanic ‘tense verbs’ which were tied directly to the religion of  ‘Fates’ which reside in our western Christendom. For example, “Should”, is the child verb of the Mother Verb, “Skuld”…which is the Fate of ‘how something will end, be debted, owed, etc. “If only I could have been there Johnny wouldn’t have died”—this is a ‘contingency statement excluding as Sovereign God and including a Fate, a debt, a repayment ‘god’ for ‘not having done something’. We are so embued with Germanic paganism as believers in Christ that we must return to the New Testament Greek in its CONTEXT to regain ‘consciousness’. So, the ‘reference’ for my ontology, our ontology is: we are ‘coming to be in the likeness of Christ’-Romans 8:28-31. This is the ‘to what end’ that the Romans asked. Deeply laden in that question was the reference to a pagan past: To what end will the Fates allow. If “Intent” or the ‘to what end’ is one of a ‘fatalistic’ nature, then, we must wait on ‘nature’ and personified ‘fates’ or ‘fatua’. The ‘nature’ or ‘natura’ of one motion to the next is an uninterrupted one–or, a ‘perfect’ fate; a ‘universal fate’. Taking this pure, perfect and universal very pagan belief that nature is personified ‘fate’ —we have our birthing grounds for ‘the Answer’ from the ‘miraculous’ –or, “THAT THING” which *interrupts* the nature of ‘debt, payment, owing, fatality (((all same word—found in Norse Skuld or “should”/ Greek Lachesis – or ‘luck’))). This is called, “Intent”. Intent was shown by the God of Grace, not the God of Retribution (the ‘payback’) as the Pagan knows (who will know the God of Grace *if* Every knee shall bow and confess that Jesus is Lord). *Graceful Intent* broke the reasoning and their correlative ‘economies’ of ‘retribution’ within ‘fatalism’–which is the source of all paganism. We find this paganism in the Western Christian Doctrine when we say that God would not bring ‘evil’ or ‘destruction’ upon us. I could simply quote Isaiah 45:7-following, “I the Lord, create both good and evil (ra’ah-Hebrew: “destruction”)  You see, the “payback, debt, owing, fate, fatality, etc.” comes from the RICHES, FORTUNES, LUCK belief, crouched in paganism, that the Fatua or fates brought to you while you were on this earth. This “payback” is defined as the Naturally Fated field. “Mother Nature” is the personified ‘fate’ which you will be in debt to, owe, die to in the end.  Conversely, the *Intent of Grace* from Christ used this pagan’s field to show the counter…*the resolve* without debt, once and for all, that the system of debt and repayment cannot work.